Joshua Kenneth David Towler

I remember when Josh was born.  Such a sweet baby, he had a sweet spirit even then.  Our family was priviledged to have Josh, April, Debbie and Ken live with us for awhile. Lots of fun times as a family.  My most precious memory is the times we would talk about the Lord.  He always lisened with great respect.  I remember giving my bible to him one day when he dropped into church, he was so excited. Josh gave it back to me the next time I saw him.  He had gotten his own.  My dad and Josh talked about the Lord together, I know there in heaven talking about all kinds of stuff.  I Love and miss you Josh but it won't be long and we will all be together. 

It's really hard to put into words what Joshua meant to me.  Josh was always someone that I could count on to take the time to spend special time with me. Whether it was at family events or when he would just stop by out of the blue. Even though I was the "annoying little" cousin, Josh would make time for me. I always knew in my heart that if I needed Josh that he would be there.  When we were younger we got to live together for a while; I think this is why I always felt a special bond with him. He would play with me and wrestle with me just like my brother would (except I don't remember Josh hurting me...).

I remember one time when I was probably a senior in high school, Josh stopped by the house one night just to hang out. We laughed, listened to music in the car, and sat on the front porch and just talked. He must have stayed hours. Before he left that night he handed me all of his CD's and told me to pick one to keep. Oh course, I had to take his Dr. Dre CD...LOL. That's just who Josh was. He made personal touches with people. I could learn from him.

I think the last time I got to spend time with Josh was at Kyle's going away party. We sat on the couch and just talked. He was so proud of Cole, Felicity, and Trinity. He was telling me how well they were doing in school and how much he enjoyed being able to spend extra time with them. He was also so proud of Lucy and everything that she was doing. Josh loved to talk about his family; he loved them so much. He also couldn't stop sharing about God and how much he loved going to his new church. He was so excited about his relationship with Jesus Christ.

I have such great memories with Josh. He was very special to me and very special in general. Josh was one of a kind. His eyes were full of love; you knew when he looked at you how he felt. He was giving, loved music, super sweet tea, and his family above all other things. I will truly miss him, but I am so thankful that I will get to see him again in heaven.

Joshua and April are the closest things I ever had to siblings.  Growing up Josh always wanted to tag along and play the games April and I played.  But somehow instead of playing girl games she and I played his games.  Building forts and hiding out, war and making up silly songs.  We could rarely talk him into lip synching with us and dancing to Salt N Peppa or  Milli Vanilli.  I will never forget sleep overs and dinners with the Towlers.  Even when we went away to college our visits home were spent in April's room exchanging gifts and reminiscing.  My heart is broken for all the Towlers and especially for Josh.  He deserved so much more than the tragic end he got. 

It's so hard to say how much you mean to me Josh. You were always so much fun, and even though I was a "little kid," you still let me hang out with you and the "grownups." I remember trying to teach you bass guitar last time I visited, and how adorable it was on your wedding day when you were wearing your beat up skate shoes. Everyone used to say we had the same face, and in a lot of ways I thought of you as my other brother.
I am going to miss you so much. I love you cousin

Joshua
My first best friend
Lover of Music
Excited story teller
Fire alarm sleeper
Approval seeker
Child of God
Passionate Feeler
Looser of hope
Finder of Grace
Keeper of cousins
Player of games
Explorer of meaning
Secret keeper
Consealor of anguish
Believer in good
Master of intensity
Player of dreams
My Brother